Saturday, May 07, 2005
Live n let live
I am getting well.I need more meds.But I am sick of taking meds.The whole medical profession is kinda getting on my nerves.They can't cure me of manic-depression,nor can they get the damn fever outta my system.I just love to put the blame on every possible scapegoat I can find.It makes me feel superior to them.I used to enjoy the perplexed and confused-concerned looks on people who cared for me when I was having one of swings on the manic depressive pendulum.I craved attention I guess.Not anymore.I didn't even inform anyone about illness.No one would have bothered anyways.haha maybe thats why I didn't tell anyone.The good thing about blogging is..i can write stuff and people might be concerned for REAL,or they might just fake it,but at least it gives the choice to me..to interpret howsoever I like it.I generally think they REALLY care.And I know some really do.It makes my heart glad.In reality it's different.I think the face of a person is an open book about a person's soul.I have been told at times that the strangest thing they find in me is --i seldom talk and my damnable eyes are always looking at 'em.direct.They feel insulted and scared.I feel nothing.umm..nah I guess i used to feel confused at the disharmony b/w what their words and actions were saying and what their faces.their eyes were.I like this drama now.A stale boring drama that I see everytime.The masks change,the soul remains the same.haha how wonderfully and universally connected we are.See i love slinging offence at you guys.Keeps me away from seeing myself in the mirror and chasing my own demons.I remain unchanged.I used to think of changing the world.That desire has gone too.I really am practising 'Live and Let Live'.We all are created equal.Oh yeah that reminds me of a quote by George Orwell in his novel 'Animal Farm' and nah I haven't read that book..i am against reading.,I just heard that quote in a Pink Floyd interview ..it said "All men are created equal.Some are created more equal than the others".hehe what wit.i don't know why i included this quote.It doesn't fit in.Or does it?well who cares.
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7 comments:
indiatimespublic----oh well IP,i enjoy self-deprication so you MIGHT think of me as someone 'genuine'.At times I am.At times I just mock ya'll.
de.vile--this is sooonot done.Why do you delete?
Pssst ! she called u an ass hole
for looking for sympathy
ino and she nos dat ur not on medication
u just want attention and desire to be cuddled by ladies
-Saby
aint dat true ?
and heyyyyy
how did uno dat annony mouse was her ?
-Saby
Was jus sayin you dont seem depressed. You have too much self-esteem if anything sweetness :) Didnt want to advice you but then heck you wanted ta know. So...
And saby that says de.vile loud and clear. Maybe liquid diet and old age makes you blind too...
so ash ur practising Axl Rose ha :) Live n let live...the way to go.
Keshi.
Saby--aren't you getting hysterical thesedays.Chill,old man.
and ofcourse what you said isn't true.I am on medication and i don't need symapthy.Attention is okay,but cuddling is a no-no.
and yeah,don't make too many comments on my blog.write whatever you haveta write in a single comment.
de.vile--i hear you,lovey.I'm glad you see traces of self-esteem in me.hard to renouce it,ya see.
keshi-- it was 'live n let DIE' by him.i follow no-one.Axl Rose was cool,though.
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