Wednesday, September 21, 2005

No more



To move into a slow phase
I rather stand at the gates


And no one can see thru
locked are the soul-mirrors


Rough boney fingers,streching
and a little more,for a grasp.


When you take everything out of nothing
nothingness still survives.


For such is the effect of love
and such is the effect of wine


Casually I send spiralling puffs
tracks of long lost years they leave.


Steady the ocean which heaves
in the eyes of the beholder


No more I care for release
I surrender to my abode


I hold my head high
where the silences shriek and hopes die.

27 comments:

{illyria} said...

the last line was powerful. well done, ashes.

Anonymous said...

sexy poetry

De.vile said...

*When you take everything out of nothing
nothingness still survives.*


Love it. The rest is well, a state, cant comment.

Jim said...

i dont no why
i dont no whyyyy



... dis Ashes posts such creepy pics
i loved the text though

Jim said...

wont some one tell Transcience to shut her mouth !





oooppss ! i didnt mean it dat way
wat she says is good

i mean the slow opening and closing of mouth


she looks like a fish in water

Jim said...

Dear Ashes and his types,
dis is gonna be a long letter Ashes,
grab a chair, a Coke and a burger

why do u guys rite?

as i understand it
riting is communication wid a purpose

my purpose is to change the world
get guys to see the world in my eyes

see the mistakes i made
and hope u guys will learn from my mistakes

but Alas !
youth never lissens

but i gotta say it nevertheless


in your case i see no purpose
except mebbe impress impresionable girls

wid wat a great riter u guys are


Vanity of vanities
all is vanity
- ecclesiastes

Jim said...

these days dis old man is contemplating on Love
he just turned 55 on Sept 20
but dis crazy old man
has not lost the capacity to sustain an erection and love


i love a lotta guys for a lotta reasons

i love De Vile coz she is a lost child seeking GOD only nos wat

i love Kesh coz she loves old men

i love Caraff coz she is not afraid to love
even though she been hurt before


i love Fira
coz he sometimes comes out wid very illuminating in sights

but not very often


i love Ashes
coz he been hurt in life

he figured his lyrics and guitar strumming wud make him a Rock Star

hehehe .....

now he reads sad poetry for sad ppl to read

Jim said...

sorry
'rites'

sebia said...

by standing on the gates,
u are losing ur soul in waste,
soul mirrors nt locked.
its u who is lost,
why u are carving death from life,
u are still alive,and hope always survives.
amongst the shrieks of silence,
love always thrives.

Ashes said...

transience--thanks.

anonymous@10:21--You reckon it sexy?

de.vile--yeah, a state.Infact the whole art of poetry is a representation of states.varied and mostly tumultuous.

Saby--yeah,the pic was creepy.But i loved the 3-handed skeleton.There is an underling beauty.and the pic transience used is wonderful.Bjork is someone I never liked except in this one video.

Saby--I shall try to explain.I have no purposes.I don't want to change the world.Because they won't.I just write,and as de.vile said,i write about 'states'.It's not directed at someone,it's not a cry 'against' something or someone.Not even a whine.It's just what the 'state' is.I understand that you are right in your motives.I am not as strong and certainly not an altruist.I am selfish and I write for myself.Thats my sole purpose.Thats my soul purpose.

Happy b'day Saby.You can love me for writing sad poetry and etc.,and I love you for being a clown and pretending to be a butthead.You care,but you have your own twisted way of showing you do.I don't care and I have my own twisted way of showing I don't.

Sebia--a pleasure to have you on my blogspace and write these words.See Sebia i told you,you are wonderful when you allow yourself to be.*smiles*

Anonymous said...

OK Ashes,
lets Live and Let Live
u go your way, and
i go mine

but i gotta tell u dis
ur an asshole!

aometime back a nice girl
walked in here and asked
Ashes wanna fuck?

and u replied
only if ur pretty


i followed her
she gave me a good time

u hurt her bad Ashes
hell hath no fury like ....

i transformed the fury of a scorned wooman into Love

told her
u are an asshole
an impotent asshole
possibly gay too

Anonymous said...

Ashes ur a very immature kid,
dat invitation was not an invitation to fuck

dont lissen to words
she had no visitors to her blogg

she started the blogg to talk to ppl, to share her joys and sorrows

i met many ppl on blogg;land like dis
going thro ruff times
wid an insensitive uncaring husband

trying to find Love in dis loveless world

also lesbians and gays
who are called nasty names like dyke,etc

these are beautiful ppl inside
it is not their fault dat their sexual preferences are different
they are just built dat way


God loves dem too
and they love God too

they are very religious too
and very sensitive caring persons



but dat Rat Zingler, the current Pope is an idiot like BUSH

Ashes said...

Saby/anonymous--do you haveta stand up for somebody else now,eh?A girl who comes upto me and askes "wanna fuck" would sure get a "only if you're pretty" or when I am in a worse moods "only when I am too drunk to care".
I sure am not gay and i don't understand gays at all.All sexual deviants are too complex for me.I sometimes abuse them but it's cuz I don't understand.If i've unintentionaly hurt any gay buddy of yours,i'm sorry.
I appreciate the fact that there are people who want love,and i sure don't want to trample on their feelings.It's just that on my bad days i shout at everyone and anyone.

Dewdrop said...

Hope never dies, it dangles on a thin rope

Keshi said...

I did not write the above comment Ash...now they r imitating my profile pic too...lol cheap thrills for cheap idiots with nuttin betta to do!

Ash if u click on the above Keshi-lover's link u will see that my profile is shamelessely copied to flaunt his stupidity and it doesnt show the blogpage link...cos it's fake.

Keshi.

Jim said...

i suspect she is a split personality
a Dr Jekyl and Miss Hyde

Damn u Tiger,
i didnt say she is hideous
she is pretty







pretty sexy

Anonymous said...

I know this feeling very well ashh...it's cos the pain has gotten to a point it'd numb...it doesnt hurt anymore, not cos the pain is gone, only cos ur immune to it now...nothing affects u anymore cos the height of the pain is reached and nothing else seems painful...


keshi

Anonymous said...

ashhh the crap wasnt from me...now the guy has lost it completely he's even copied my profile, pic and everything lol wut a bore.

Keshi.

Anonymous said...

ashhh the crap wasnt from me...now the guy has lost it completely he's even copied my profile, pic and everything lol wut a bore.

Keshi.

Ashes said...

dewdrop--thats the whole point.There are no absolutes and hence no certanity.

zombie--*smiles*..ah misty_lilac,so you didn't understand the post in 'totality'..nevermind,sometimes we can't relate with 'everything'.

Anonymous said...

shut up.

Anonymous said...

go here more often Ashes
www.keshigirl.blogspot.com

ooaside from kid stuff

we do theology too

Anonymous said...

i have absolute certainty
i am 55 now

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