Thursday, August 16, 2007

The Importance of closing eyes

Pain was sometime such a sudden rush. Now it spreads slowly like nerve gas, and builds up..inflating like a helium balloon, never rising but sinking down, and down until nothing but a dark vacuum encloses one in a tight hug and then there is no darkness. You become one with it. And the dissolution is absolute and final. And then the one winged goddess comes down. A beautiful angel who is the keeper of all things broken and tattered and yet beautiful. Maybe beautiful because of all broken lines. Like flowers on graves. Like a moonless night. Like withered petals. Like love lost. Absolute. Absolution.

16 comments:

Sweetstickychewy said...

***Maybe beautiful because of all broken lines. Like flowers on graves. Like a moonless night. Like withered petals. Like love lost. Absolute. Absolution.

Beautiful expression.

De.vile said...

There was a post of yours...early, early ones that I had fallen in love with. Reminds me of that.

Don't let the pain bog you down, you'll be OK once its gone.

Ashes said...

sweetstickychewy--nice name you got.*smiles* welcome

de.vile--you know i'm like a yo-yo.i won't stay down for long,but then I dont stay up for long too.

sandeip said...

absolution is an immortal quest,isnt it?we live life,as you said that day..dead or undead...but the quest goes on beyond us...for its not about us...its not about the numerous undefined them too..its about nothing..if perhas it is about someething,maybe it is about being,in general,living and un-living in this crawling snivelling sttutterting staggering meaningless sick world..pain.
but then pain is another timeless meaningless concept..it stretches far more elastic across time than time itself..sometime stretching thing to a breaking point,other times hitting us with a twang worse than the cruellest whip,...but yet we survive,ash,we survive..because there is no other option..in the economics of life..death is not the option in which you get maximum benefit...neither is life...this is one game theory problem in which the only viable position lies in the lose-lose quadrant...

Keshi said...

Love this one Ashes! So beautifully captured.

**A beautiful angel who is the keeper of all things broken and tattered and yet beautiful.

I can assure u thats so me! cos Im broken to the core yet I wanna be beautiful to others...

Keshi.

Ashes said...

sandiep--lose-lose quadrant..well i don't play in such positions.I win absoultely or fade into absolution.thats the way I lived,thats the way i'll die.

Keshi--the one winged angel wouldn't care about people .she's a keeper of hell, keshi and you certainly arent that.

Keshi said...

In a way Im a keeper of Hell too...

Keshi.

Keshi said...

n u wanna check out my cok post? LOL!

Keshi.

AVIANA said...

hi there!

i like this one but i hope you'll smiling soon again....

:)

Ashes said...

keshi--i did check your COCK..post.wanted to comment something nasty but then i didn't.it wouldn't have been original.there has been a long line of sickos before me,historically speaking,who have joked about it enough.hehe

aviana--I simle..see*shows his pearly whites* ain't they neat?

Keshi said...

lols Ashes! ok no worries.

btw check out my current post w.o. fail...u'll luuurve it ;-)

Keshi.

Jim said...

Ashes

u r a winner
Keshi has chosen to sleep with u

Ashes said...

Jim--c'mon..thats ALL you had to say about it? i mean for fucks sake I expect more nastiness at least from you.

Keshi said...

lols Ash good one!

Sticks her tongue out at Jim...

Keshi.

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Keshi said...

hows u Ashes?

Keshi.