What should I write? Writing is such a beautiful way to express oneself, ones thoughts and ones’ innermost core. Sometimes we don’t even know what our innermost core is. Sometimes we probably don’t want to know. Some fear, some guilt. Sometimes we write to express what we have read, the writing styles of people and sometimes we even take over feeling the same thing the author, which we read, experienced, without us really taking the pains to experience it. I find myself wondering what to write. I write stuff which is melancholy and sometimes profound. Am I writing stuff which I haven’t experienced? Am I as honest as I can be, and as original. Isn’t there a hint of Jim Morrison, a Kurt Cobain or some other person in my writing? I try my best to be original, but isn’t avoiding writing something which someone might have written about a kind of running away. A fear of comparison, perhaps. Or maybe a disgust at comparison.
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booooooooooooorrring
now we have to reach 60+ commments again.
doofus you gotta helpz
At 14 September 2008 14:18,
Mystique Wanderer said...
this has 'aunty' written all over it...you do realize that half of your posts in the last one month have been 'venting out' posts...venting out is a good thing if u do it once in a while...if done repeatedly then dudette u need to really take a hard look at your life and where its going...
neways miss cribbaholic...i do hope u get out of your depressed state soon :)
September 2008 17:39, Keshi said...
Mystique Im not here to play Miss.Wife for everyone. I maybe an Aunti, Uncle, wutever u wanna call me...but u take a good look at ur own comments to ppl in their blogs. Atleast I dun JUDGE ppl the way u do.
Mebbe say something abt the post and not my personality? besides blogging is abt writing wut I feel like writing...not wut YOU wanna hear. U dun hv to NAME-CALL me for that. I dun appreciate that.
and Mystique, I dun hv to look at my life...mebbe u should take a good look at ur own self. Who taught to u to be so rude to ppl? Its so unclassy.
Keshi.
hee heee cribbaholic
yawdieeee yawwwwwwwwwwwww
i alwya heplz ya
sasha got no skills for writing
buggah talks bout writer bloke
only we mouses n jimmy can write man
- doofus-mouse
kehist talks bout unclassiness
she says"i never JUDge people like u do"
keeeees my mouse-ass n pinch me hard
i gonna die laughing
How can that music give you writer's block?! It's inspirational to say the least.
And nothing's original, really. Writing by itself is copying/imitating anyways.
de-vile is a fakah too
she talks high n mighty
as a massaiah
prolly she needs a bright colored underwear
to make her less boring
bingoooo!! wht a brilliant pice of writin!! luuvved itt!! wonderful!
SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHAT THIS MEANS...I ALMOST CRAPPED IN MY PANTZ AFTER READING IT:
The stellar heights are intimidating and so are the sacred depths.A wishbone would be helpful.The dark secrets of the ancients always facinated me.Secret societies and their facinating rituals have an allure of their own.Either this or the simple cleanliness of machines.I love huge factories as much as i love ancient castle-relics.A walkdown in the factory of my dad when i was 7 is still vivid in my mind.The place looked so beautiful in the night,with sky high roofs and lines and lines of machines.The place that looked so dead in the night would be throbbing with sounds and click-clacks in the day,throwing out stories and predictions and encapsulations and all.The smell of the ink was beautiful and i wanted to hug everyone who invented any damn machine.A world inhabited with machines seemed a perfect utopia to me back then.I have grown more selfish now.it has to be just me,me and me and the whole damn space.
Keshi said...
Love this one Ashes! So beautifully captured.
**A beautiful angel who is the keeper of all things broken and tattered and yet beautiful.
I can assure u thats so me! cos Im broken to the core yet I wanna be beautiful to others...
Keshi.
hahahahahahaaaaaaa
hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
anonymouses-- you haveta stop Keshi-bashing here,its getting boring really.
de.vile--not the music.its just my disposition maybe.and i am glad you found the music inspiring.
anonymouse who craps in pants--read Garfield, kiddo.this stuff is not for you.maybe ask yer daddy what it means.
TO: DE VILE AND ASHES AND .......
from: GOD
all u guys tink
i dont exist
HA ! ... uno wat ?
i dont give a damn
but for God's sake ... err, i mean for my sake
stop glorifying despair, doom, death, demons, devils, and
the next time
if there is a next time
vote Mcain
ashes i already pooped in my pantz
i am still afraid of words like nihilism and melancholy u use in ur blog
i needd br cleaned now
u can wear a latex glow n ....
it (ur writing) still makes no sense
never did
why dont u instead write bour ur latex glow n my poop
garfield is witty n is full of humor n life
unlike melancholy
it is mellon collie u ass!!!
At 14 September 2008 14:18,
Mystique Wanderer said...
this has 'aunty' written all over it...you do realize that half of your posts in the last one month have been 'venting out' posts...venting out is a good thing if u do it once in a while...if done repeatedly then dudette u need to really take a hard look at your life and where its going...
neways miss cribbaholic...i do hope u get out of your depressed state soon :)
bingooooo mouseeee where are ya man? this ashes got some josh in his voice. we need give him a wedgie before he finalizes on one more word like nihilism frm his oxford dick(stationary)
sasha, had ur lunch?
u welcome to share some cheese
some cheese have green mould gowing
we mouses r afraid that it gets to your head
and we are afraid that you will write more mellon-cholie blogs
o gawddddd tussi great ho
o gawddddd tussi great ho
to anonymouseGod-shut the hell up will ya.gimme a Amen to that.
garfield lover anonymouse--did Daddy dearest read you garfield bedtime stories son?
oh and whats with this shasha thingy? seems green-mould is already working on yer pee.. err mousie brain.
ps: i will play with you mousies time and again when i have urges for something decadent.ya'll make great clowns
oooooooh gawwwwwwwwddd
oooooooooooooooooh
i have a weakness for
angry young men like
sasha
gawwwwwddd
sashaaaaaa
- Minnie (hand maid mouse of Gawwwd)
The Sultry Touch Haiku
I undress for you
Watch me caress my lotus
We release in sync
Her: drunk and horny.
Me: eager for the threesome.
Until Bubba showed
Women crave friendship
The strong man gives it to her
Puts his trust in her
Ashes
i'm a free bird,with wings clipped.
where is de birdie-poop?
ash makes himself an ass
but u got to give to him though
he is not like crazy K
he is generally cool
till de moon rises at 12 night n de howls are heard
anonymous@Tue Sep 16, 01:02:00 AM--you know haikus?. cool.you stupid freaks aren't as stupid as you try to be.just like most people aren't as intelligent as they try to be.
anonmous@Wed Sep 17, 01:01:00 AM--the last line was a classic*laughs*.Most of what your gang writes is boring but then there are some funnymouses in yer tribe.even if your gang shows up in their non-anonymous form, i promise not to kill all of ya'll.but only the non-boring ones.
shuttt upppp u ass sashass
you don't try to charm me
itz other way round
i am hotter than sri devi in a yellow saree
drenched in rain and dancing
de-vile can never look like that
she has bad hair days 6 times a week
signed,
- Minnie (in a wet yellow saree)
NEW YORK (CNNMoney.com) -- Stocks plummeted Wednesday, with the Dow industrials falling 449 points in its second worst session of the year, as the government's emergency rescue of AIG amplified fears about the stability of financial markets.
The Dow Jones industrial average (INDU) lost 449 points, or 4% and fell to the lowest level since November 2005. The Standard & Poor's 500 (SPX) index lost 4.7% and fell to its lowest point since April 2005. The Nasdaq composite (COMP) lost 4.9% and ended at its lowest point since August 2006.
Selling pressure eased in the mid-afternoon as the jump in oil and gold prices boosted the underlying stocks. But any recovery attempt lost steam and the market finished the session just above the worst levels of the day.
After the close, a New York Times report said that Morgan Stanley (MS, Fortune 500) was considering a merger with Wachovia (WB, Fortune 500) or another bank.
Morgan Stanley (MS, Fortune 500) shares had tumbled 24% during the session on worries about its profits and ability to raise capital, even though the company announced better-than-expected quarterly results Tuesday night. Goldman Sachs (GS, Fortune 500) also slumped despite having reported better-than-expected results. (Full story)
Also after the close, a Wall Street Journal report said that Wells Fargo (WFC, Fortune 500) and Citigroup (C, Fortune 500) have expressed interest in Washington Mutual (WM, Fortune 500), the mortgage lender that has seen its business erode in the housing market collapse.
Financial stocks tumbled. The Philadelphia KBW Bank (BKX) index fell almost 8% and the Amex Securities Broker/Dealer (XBD) index fell over 10%.
Small cap stocks were hit, too, with the Russell 2000 (RUT) index sliding 4.8%.
The Dow Jones Wilshire 5000 Composite Index, an index that measures the value of 5,000 U.S.-based companies, fell 4.6percent, giving investors an overall paper loss of approximately $700 billion.
The selloff comes in the wake of the government's bailout of Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac, Lehman Brothers' bankruptcy, Merrill Lynch's sale to Bank of America and ongoing worries about Washington Mutual and other firms.
"There's a fear of a financial system meltdown going on, and it's grounded in the headlines we're seeing about the series of firms that are in trouble," said Paul Rabbit, president of Rabbit Capital Management.
Meanwhile, a measure of corporate borrowing costs surged to levels not seen since around the time of the crash of 1987, according to reports.
Stocks slumped Monday, with the Dow losing 504 points after Lehman Brothers declared bankruptcy and AIG plunged amid worries about its solvency. Stocks bounced a bit Tuesday when the Federal Reserve held interest rates steady, cooling fears that the economic outlook has deteriorated on the financial market crisis.
But the reprieve from the selling was a short one, with a broad-based selloff in place Wednesday.
Rabbit said stocks were also under seasonal pressures, with September typically the worst month of the year for the major gauges.
According to the Stock Trader's Almanac, September has traditionally been the worst month for the Dow and S&P 500 since 1950, with the Dow averaging a loss of 1% during the month and the S&P 500 losing 0.6%. September has also been the worst month for the Nasdaq since its inception in 1971, averaging a loss of 0.9%.
By comparison, as of Wednesday's close, the Dow is down 8.1% and the S&P 500 is down 6.4% in September, while the Nasdaq has fallen 11.3% month-to-date.
Year-to-date, all three major gauges are down more than 20%.
Bonds rallied, lowering the corresponding yields, as investors sought the comparatively safe haven of government debt. The dollar tumbled versus the yen and euro. Oil prices gained $6.01 a barrel and gold prices soared $70 an ounce.
AIG: The Fed said late Tuesday that it was extending a two-year, $85 billion bridge loan to the troubled insurer in exchange for a stake in AIG that could reach 80%. AIG will have to pay back the loan in full by selling off some of its assets.
AIG had been on the verge of collapse as it scrambled to raise cash in the aftermath of the subprime mortgage collapse and subsequent credit crunch. AIG (AIG, Fortune 500) shares plunged 45% Wednesday. (Full story)
(Why the Fed pulled the trigger on AIG)
Barclays and Lehman Brothers: Late Tuesday, Barclays said it will buy Lehman's North American investment banking and capital markets businesses for $250 million in cash, as well as Lehman's New York headquarters and two New Jersey data centers for $1.5 billion. (Full story)
Barclays (BCS) had walked away from a deal to buy the troubled company outright over the weekend. Bank of America (BAC, Fortune 500) also walked away from a possible merger, and wound up buying Merrill Lynch (MER, Fortune 500) in a $50 billion stock deal.
Unable to find a buyer, Lehman Brothers (LEH, Fortune 500) filed for the biggest bankruptcy in history on Monday.
Although the government helped in trying to facilitate a deal for Lehman Brothers, it was reportedly unwilling to finance any buyout, as opposed to what it did with Bear Stearns in March and AIG. The government's reluctance to step in contributed to the reluctance of other banks to strike a deal with the troubled company. (Full story)
The government reportedly helped AIG in order to prevent a bankruptcy that would have had broad implications for the U.S. and global markets. By comparison, the Lehman fallout was seen as more contained.
The government is also reportedly helping to facilitate the deal for the purchase of Washington Mutual. Any deal, however, would reportedly not include government financing.
Other movers: Declines were broad based, with all 30 Dow components ending lower, led by the financial shares. Other big Dow losers included Boeing (BA, Fortune 500), General Electric (GE, Fortune 500), General Motors (GM, Fortune 500) and Home Depot (HD, Fortune 500).
A variety of airline shares tumbled on the spike in oil prices, with higher fuel costs directly impacting airlines' profits. American Airlines' parent AMR (AMR, Fortune 500) slid 14%, Continental Airlines (CAL, Fortune 500) fell 14% and JetBlue Airways (JBLU) lost 6%.
Railroad and trucker stocks slipped too on the rise in oil prices. The Dow Jones Transportation (DJTA) average fell 3.5%.
Negativity persists: The mood was pessimistic Wednesday, following late Tuesday news that the Fed was stepping in to help AIG avoid filing for bankruptcy - a development that could have caused massive turmoil within the already-strapped financial market.
But rather than reassure investors, the deal seemed to add to the uncertainty surrounding financial markets, coming six months after the near-collapse and government rescue of Bear Stearns.
"The whole thing is a mess," said Kelli Hill, Portfolio Manager at Ashfield Capital Partners. "When Bear Stearns collapsed, everyone thought that was the capitulation, but it wasn't. It's ongoing."
The fallout from the housing and credit market collapse "ripples through the entire financial industry and is stretching to other industries," she said. "The question everyone is asking is 'what's going to fix this?'"
The news also seemed to tighten up credit markets, despite the Fed's efforts to keep money flowing.
The Treasury Dept. said Wednesday that it would sell $40 billion of debt for the Fed to help the central bank deal with the huge cash crunch in the wake of the credit crisis.
But a key measure of borrowing costs surged to 1987 levels, Bloomberg reported, as the three-month treasury bill rates fell to multi-year lows.
The TED spread, which measures the difference between what the Treasury pays for three-month loans and what banks charge each other, surged to the highest level in more than 20 years.
A jump in the spread shows how panicky banks are, in that they are charging each other a bigger interest-rate premium than money lent to the U.S. government.
In other news, the Securities and Exchange Commission put into place new rules to limit so-called "naked" short-selling - a move aimed at soothing financial markets.
Short-selling refers to the process by which traders who have sold shares short to take advantage of a falling market need to buy them back. (Full story)
Housing: Construction of new houses and apartments fell to their lowest level in 17 years last month, according to a government report Wednesday. (Full story)
Fuel prices: Oil prices rallied as investors eyed the developments on Wall Street and the falling dollar, which makes dollar-traded commodities like oil cheaper for foreign investors to buy. The government's mixed weekly inventories report was also in the mix.
U.S. light crude oil for October delivery rose $6.01 to settle at $97.16 after settling at a seven-month low on Tuesday. (Full story).
Prices have plummeted since peaking at $147.27 a barrel on July 11, as investors have bet that sluggish global growth will diminish oil demand.
Gas prices rose overnight, gaining for the 8th day in a row, according to a national survey of credit card activity.
Other markets: In global trade, European markets ended lower and Asian stocks ended lower with the exception of the Japanese Nikkei.
Treasury prices rallied as investors sought safety in government debt, lowering the yield on the benchmark 10-year note to 3.41% from 3.49% late Tuesday. Treasury prices and yields move in opposite directions.
In currency trading, the dollar gained versus the euro and the yen.
COMEX gold for December delivery rallied $70 to settle at $850.50 an ounce
i misssss diffy
ssssoooo baddd
- duffy-mouse
NEW YORK - The mother of Britney and Jamie Lynn Spears says Jamie Lynn told her she was pregnant in a note.
Lynne Spears said on NBC's "Today" show Wednesday that Jamie Lynn — 16 years old at the time — handed her the note and told her to go into the bedroom and read it.
The note said she was pregnant but "everything was gonna be OK, mom" and that she and boyfriend Casey Aldridge were going to raise the baby.
"I thought it was a joke," Spears said in an interview. "... I kept waiting for the punch line."
Spears said she realized it wasn't a joke because Aldridge, a pipe-layer from Liberty, Miss., wouldn't look at her.
"I was just truly in shock and then I started to cry. And then she started consoling me at that point," said Spears, who writes of Jamie Lynn and her older daughter, Britney, in her new memoir, "Through the Storm."
Lynne Spears said she blames herself for what happened.
"As a mother, don't we always blame ourselves? I mean, we're the first one that's gonna take the blame," she said. "We never get the credit, but we always question ourselves and say, `What did I do? We had this talk just a month ago.' I mean, I had no idea. I took a lot of the blame. I took all the blame."
Jamie Lynn, who starred in the Nickelodeon series "Zoey 101," announced her pregnancy last December. She and Aldridge welcomed daughter Maddie Briann in June. The couple are now engaged.
Lynne Spears said Britney is now back on track. The 26-year-old pop star recently picked up three awards at the MTV Video Music Awards in a recovery from her sluggish, performance at last year's event. She announced Monday that she'll release her new album, "Circus," on Dec. 2, her 27th birthday.
"She's strong, she's resilient, she's had some big bumps in the road but Britney's fine," she said. "Britney is headed to the top once again."
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