Friday, April 15, 2005

I won't

Static.
It grows on you
a mind numbing sensation of uniform complexities
and gaping mundanities.


Slow.
Death creeps on you
freezing cold death of a razor blade
sharp,intricate and useless.


Dull.
A hazy twilight of hope
redemption and happines,interwined and decayed
atrophy of the aesthetic senses.


Why?
A familiar itch
Jesus was crucified into oblivious magnificence
but we won't die a glorified death.


I won't.

48 comments:

Anonymous said...

Of human life the time is a point, and the substance is in a flux, and the perception dull, and the composition of the whole body subject to putrefaction, and the soul a whirl, and fortune hard to divine, and fame a thing devoid of judgment. And, to say all in a word, everything which belongs to the body is a stream, and what belongs to the soul is a dream and vapor, and life is a warfare and a stranger's sojourn, and after-fame is oblivion

Jim said...

Got dis from DLAK
(if u cant beat dem, join dem Sebia)

" I wouldn't mind dying in a plane crash. It'd be a good way to go. I don't want to die in my sleep, or of old age, or OD... I want to feel what it's like. I want to taste it, hear it, smell it. Death is only going to happen to you once; I don't want to miss it." – Jim Morrison



"To fear death, gentlemen, is no other than to think oneself wise when one is not, to think one knows what one does not know. No one knows whether death may not be the greatest of all blessings for a man, yet men fear it as if they knew that is is the greatest of evils. And surely it is the most blameworthy ignorance to believe that one knows what one does not know." - Plato



"Now, my good man, this is no time for making enemies." – Voltair - On his deathbed in response to a priest asking that he renounce Satan.

"For those who believe in God, most of the big questions are answered. But for those of us who can't readily accept the God formula, the big answers don't remain stone-written. We adjust to new conditions and discoveries. We are pliable. Love need not be a command or faith a dictum. I am my own God. We are here to unlearn the teachings of the church, state, and our educational system. We are here to drink beer. We are here to kill war. We are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well that Death will tremble to take us." – Charles Bukowski

"Some men never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must live" – Charles Bukowski

"I used to care but things have changed."-Bob Dylan

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Anonymous said...

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One of the most tragic things I know about human nature
is that all of us tend to put off living.

We are all dreaming
of some magical rose garden over the horizon
instead of enjoying the roses that are blooming
outside our windows today.

--Dale Carnegie

www.positivethoughts.com
dis blogg is just too negative

Keshi said...

Birth happens to you once and oh what miseries we go through because of that...Death too happens only once...but atleast in that we don't die a million deaths as we do in life.

Keshi.

sandeip said...

why death?
i am maybe as depressed in my own way;but still i never seek death;why do you?is it just to make all your friends here sick with worry?

and what do you think?death can be glorious?you talk of suicide attempts and ways of dying spectacular death.that is all fine.but dont you feel very very much like a creep when you try to throw your life away?are you that big a criminal?or SICK?
no;i dont mean yopu are sick;but anyone who commits suicide has to be gaga.

and what the hell is this stuff about a glorioius death?or a glorified death,for that matter?
if you die tomorrow and i glorify your death;whoud it matter a ratsfuck to you?it would not because by then you would qalready be past caring.so where is the use?
and speaking of glorified deaths;remember the charge of the light brigade?they still sing about it;but it didnt even matter to the greater result of that war.so whats the use of that?
and that too when you talk of an unglorified death to boot.
what the hell is the use of dying when we can live?

ash;my friend;you have made me a very very angry man;after a lot of days.STOP THINKING OF DEATH.or else...

ok;i cool it. :)
but please do stop.

Ashes said...

to all of you---I still don't give a fuck.

De.vile said...

seein things that never seem to be there. thats a disease. called relating. can smell it in here.

Keshi said...

Death is something as real as life. No need to be afraid of it. And hey deips DONT Call people who suicide as gone 'gaga' please. Unless you can be in their shoes with the same personality and find out for yourself if you could cope...no way we can do that so it's best not to judge them.

Keshi.

Anonymous said...

note - death is a very personal topic. you all should stop advising the author and let him be. keshi, same applies to you. ashes does not need you to clarify himself, it shows in his post itself. let us take the post for what it is, not for what we want it to be.

Keshi said...

anonymous I'm not trying to make Ash's post what I want it to be! If you read carefully this post is about Death and it's a blog with public comments allowed hence my opinion about it - u got any problem with it? If ash asks me to buzz off I will...so please you mind your own business.

Keshi.

Keshi said...

mind u anonymous me neither pro nor anti death...I'm neutral about it and that's how I'll always be...life and death is real equally.

Keshi.

Anonymous said...

note - yes keshi you will always be neutral, we first saw it on your comment on this post and your subsequent reply to deips. you are definitely allowed to voice your opinions and so is deips. you should stick to commenting on the post rather than on the comments themselves. deips is right in his own way, do not try to appease ashes; you only end up showing that you cannot stand up for one opinion. you'd rather say "that's so true" to everything than show your real opinions. you just want to be in everyone's good books and maybe you are. it doesnt work for too long though, you make fake it for a while but ultimately you will realize that some opinions must be supported, others refuted.

Anonymous said...

may* in the 3rd last line.

Anonymous said...

The "comments" section happens to be one where people write what they feel 'bout the topic the writer elaborates on, not what they feel of the writer himself. So for all you critisizers out there, it's Akshay's blog, not yours. If you despise his thoughts as much as you claim to, then don't read any of what he writes. He happens to be entitled to his own opinion. I read this page 'cause i like the way he writes(as do most others, I'm sure), though i might not agree with all of his thoughts. So for those of you who aren't mature enough to see this whole blog thing as a way of expression for some people, fuck off and let other people do their thing! (sorry Akshay)

Keshi said...

Well said Shyam!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

And anonymous I'm not even trying to be neutral abt Ash's thoughts...u didnt even get what I meant..I said I was being neutral abt death...duh!

And I'm not here to impress anybody or be in anybody's good books - actually if you know me I'm quite blunt. Not many people like that but do I care? NO :)

Keshi.

Anonymous said...

Giving up is my religion
Yeah
we
won't
die
a
glorified
DEATH
I
won't
TOO

-Regular-on-ur-bolg

sandeip said...

ok;all of u.

i also dont give a %^_%%

De.vile said...

gawd is hillarious how we fight bout things we dont know. i mean hey ppl, he jus said he wont give in an all youse talkin like he sed hes gonna trip off the stool right away. -rolls her eyes- neways, since not givin a fuck is cool, ill do jus that.

Dewdrop said...

Oh Im late as usual, but Ash, I see your blog is becoming another controversial zone. Enjoy the madness :)

Anonymous said...

This is to shyam.


Anonymous commenters do understand that it is his blog and he is entitled for his opinion. But we as blog readers are free to write whatsoever we feel like as he permits anonymous comments. If u read ashes blog,most of the things he has written is about death, gloom and despair. There is nothing positive about it. Therefore he has to get criticized for it. Others like Sebia has told him about this in a mild frolicsome way, but probably he don’t give a fuck or whatever.Oh well ..if he has told us to remain positive in life, preach on how to make life happier no one would have loathed him. Or even if he has written anything personal about himself, anyone wouldn’t have even commented. This guy has just a sick mind and I m not scintilla bit sorry to say this .I understand that he may be depressed in life or whatever AND SO WE ARE and I know this guy sling abuses and condescending others too.Surely,I ‘d have and even others stood for him otherwise.

It is his blog and it is a public blog not a private blog…a private blog or a private site is supposed to be paid up. It’s a free world. Anybody can view his or her opinion.If he has a sad life or if he is downhearted all the while, he shud be the last person on earth to speak iniquitous of anyone. And I have seen him and he did many times…. Ashes is a enough grown up blue funk to understand this, isn’t he?

Lastly, if we don’t like about his writing.
btw,Whose writing?ashes.We then supposed to comment on his blog?don’t we?we flout what he write about and ,word_smith or the anonymous raised their voice about the topic. Nothing is wrong in it. Or u want everyone to say “oh glorious death ..after reading ohh wow it I had a splendiferous deja vu.Thanks ashes! ”?????He is writing it and his thoughts support it ..he surely gonna get squelched for it. Don’t expect people to panegyrize him for such funereal writing…

He should be ready enough to accept sideswipes as well as the abuses coz this morose ass is not a quintessential “Saint” or Father Teresa please…

Jim said...

heyy guys,
quit the feel-o-so physical
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-Charlie Brown

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Anonymous said...

Aiite Anonymous, I'll give you that! You quite misunderstood the sole purpose behind what I said though! This place happens to be a place of expression for the writer. If one would like to criticize, positive criticism is always accepted by every artist, but one should know where to draw the line. A writer wants criticism on how to improve his works, not on how to change himself as a person!

Keshi said...

This is funny...now people are fighting to be heard...isn't this Ash's blog? Let him be heard...not ur selfish screams! Just comment and leave...don't come back for on going wars!

Keshi.

Anonymous said...

hehe u always find keshi when there is a war even if she is not involved.

and ironical enuf look what she says above.

Ashes said...

*smiles* 'look what you've started Ashes'(thinks).

And nah,am not a 'saint' of father Teresa.I think i'd be bored as fuck if I were one.And one more thing people,I really don't mind abuses from 'anonymous' commenters.I never delete and i won't disallow anonymous comments.

One misconception..I am not depressed or sad at all.It's just the way I am.I am a manic-depressive(or bi-polar) which is not due to some childhood trauma,not teenage heartburn.Just natural inclination.It would be a banal world,wouldn't it be ,if we all were ''we-are-sad-yet-we-preach-happiness" shit.I write whatever I write and If i hurt sensibilities..umm..I don't give a fuck.

Keshi said...

Good going Ash! It's your feelings that matter here whether others dun agree or not.

And anonymous I hope u heard that from Ash, and it's from me too...I dun give a ####! The fact that ur 'anonymous' and commenting abt people's personalities, tell us all what sort of person u r. Basically a coward. Fighting behind a mask isnt good for anyone's character.

Keshi.

sandeip said...

well;thanx ash.
and i assure u,i am trying my damndest to.

Anonymous said...

the strife's over..so yay...back to reading what Akshay writes....see y'all till the next time your stupid comments annoy me...la la ho hum and all.

Anonymous said...

fuck off shyamala. no one gives a damn about what you fuckin' think. stop defending ashes or anyone else. anonymous commentators are here to rule and they will always. you fuckers think that just because we dont have a name we arent entitled to an opinion. we arent fuckin' hiding behind a mask. atleast we know who we are and we stick to our opinions. we do not go ga-ga over a new entry just because our so-called friend on indiatimes has written it. we take it for what it is, without judging the author or his personal life. so stop preaching and go play yahoo pool you fuckin' catholic.

Anonymous said...

i didnt mean to say that u're father teresa .what i meant is as u r not a saint understandably..so whatever i say since u dont give a fyck my scruples dont jab me ...

again let me clear myslef i repeatedly said "if he is depressed" not that "he is depressed so .."

ashes doesnt need to improve his work.he writes well..dark poems and stuff ,thats ok.no one is bothered.



Ok cut it out…..i don’t want to xplain further

Peace.

dimwitnot said...
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Anonymous said...

this is to anonymous @1:37

u need to draw a line somewhere.whats ur problem?i request u to keep everything personal ..yahoo and shyt and not expose everything out.if u so disgust anyone ,u better speak out to the person directly .keep it within u two.if u cant handle and control ur emotion u need to visit a shrink please.

secondly,u need to learn how to fight and what not to talk.please u need a psychiatrist u ass


and hey i m anonymous@1:54 and 8:23 am,fyi

Anonymous said...

now you shut up. did not ask for your expert comments sucker. i will do as i deem fit. if you enrage me enough i might even paste some chat conversations and then fuckers like shyamala and ashes will be nowhere. understand?

Anonymous said...

yeh ANONYMOUS, when you feel somethin and state it, it's called STANDIN UP FOR WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN, and when i feel somethin and say it, it's called goin "gaga over my indiatimes friend" eh? very unprofessional of you to target this "fuckin' catholic" personally, you got a problem wid me, come temme..it's called STANDIN UP FOR WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN remember, unlike your current status of anonymity..and yeh you say "i might even paste some chat conversations and then fuckers like shyamala and ashes will be nowhere" well go ahead ANONYMOUS no one got anything to hide or be ashamed of except you!

Anonymous said...

you need to get a life anonymous@3:03pm

U got a sad life dude..
That was so cheap of u
R u a abandoned secluded kid?! ..a gunda?! A rogue?!

r u terrorizing them..
xactly the way street gunda

a maniac u r

u need self examining urself ..
such a dud..
get on with ur life…
its good for u

whats ur purpose anyway.
It is even more afflictive if u extend those ur dumb girl-proposing chat or kick-ass chat session or whatever …

U said “fuckin catholic..”
Let me tell u im not catholic but they r most peaceful of species

firacub said...

Hi Ashes,
Looks like a war zone in here. Why cant guys just simply read a post and leave their comments and leave. Rather they choose to fight and prove that they have blessed cranium in the otherwise deprived existence. Nevertheless a nice post. Keep it up.


Peace,
Firacub.

Anonymous said...

was the above comment really by fira or by keshi? or has fira turned into keshi? oh no!

Anonymous said...

shyamala we all know your ways. saying yeh yeh a million times does not make you any more right. anyhoo, firacub's suggestion is good. i will take it.

Ashes said...

jesus christ! am i not the most controvercial man since Eminem or Marilyn Manson.

Shyam is cool.Keep her out of the bullshit.It's b/w you assholes and I.Spill yer venom on me and i'd laugh at you.
Same goes for Keshi.just don't target her thru' my comment section..of for that matter anyone else.I am an egoist.I wan't all the brickbats thrown at me.This is MY space for Pete's sake.

Anonymous said...

don't target me via this blog if you got anythin against me personally that's all i meant to say in my earlier post! anyway...i'm sorry that i got involved in any of this, Akshay!

Keshi said...

I'm sorry Ash that jerks have made ur blog a war zone to attack me. It's typical jerk style to use somebody else's space to spew venom on others.

Ash Im really sorry I got involved in this earlier...I just wanted these nameless empty-heads to move out of ur space - thats all.

tc n hugggz!
Keshi.

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Anonymous said...

guns-n-roses is the anonymous

Jim said...

gotta admit
there is someting about Kesh dat brings about the best in pppl
and the suitors who she rejected are trying to get even


me, the only reason iam here is coz i hate darkness, ashes and devile
the hate is in alphabetical order

do a sort please